Mom Guilt

Ya’ll. I literally cried making this reel. —> I loved you first Reel by Christine Lee Photography

I can still remember crying in the car, with my mom holding me and crying too, after I was told my baby from my first pregnancy no longer had a heartbeat.

I can still remember lying in the hospital bed crying hysterically because I was just told I might not be able to get pregnant again on my own.

And I can still remember and feel the immense relief of hearing my son’s heartbeat. And the gratitude that my doctor was understanding and compassionate enough to let me come back every two weeks just to hear his heart beating.

I still remember soaking up every single minute of pregnancy. The day he was born I was OBSESSED. I was happier than I had ever been. I just felt that this is what I’m here for…to be his mom.

As time passed, I realized that there was more to me than just being a mom. I discovered my passion for photography and helping other moms see the beauty in their love for their children. I found a passion in uplifting moms and high school seniors.

There are times that I look back and wonder if I could have been more present with my son as I was building my photography business. Then mom guilt sets in. And then the anxiety and the “what ifs” and the “I could have done this better” thoughts take over.

But then my sweet little boy looks at me and asks “how was your day, mom?” and suddenly I feel that I’m on the right track. That maybe I haven’t completely blown this whole parenting thing.

When I start to question myself, when I start to have mom guilt, I always pull myself out of it by being even more present with my son, by focusing more on him and giving him more attention and reminding him how much I love him.

So try to remember that you’re NOT messing it up…you ARE doing the right thing, and your children do know how much you love them.

Because you are doing amazing, mama.

Christine Lee Photography specializes in high school senior photography, maternity, and family photography in Plant City, Lakeland, Riverview, Apollo Beach, and Fishhawk, Florida.